(trans)prose

My voice has continued to drop steadily, and I love it.  At this point, my voice is read as male fairly consistently; I’m amazed at how quickly the transformation happened.  My voice still cracks often, and my singing voice is still unreliable.  When I’m perceived as male, I think that I’m perceived as gay (which is fine with me, since I identify as bisexual).  I figure this is because of my lisp and my use of my hands when speaking.  Also, I think I unconsciously tried to use a more monotonous voice to seem more male.  Now that I don’t have to do that, my voice is much more expressive.

I must look different, because I am passing extremely often–even without binding. I need to shave at least every other day, and I have a lot more facial hair than I did two months ago. I have a peach-fuzz mustache, my chin continues to fill in and creep up towards the sides of my mouth.  My neck is super hairy; I have very visible neck whiskers if I don’t shave. Sideburn production is well underway; I’m considering growing them out in the coming month. My cheeks are growing hairs along the top edge of where my beard should be; it’s as if they’re outlining the beard before coloring it in.  I’m not having too much trouble with acne, although I usually have some on my shoulders. 

Holy crap I’m hairy. One morning in mid-November, I looked down and saw that my entire belly was covered in darkening peach fuzz. My happy trail is expanding outwards and converting those little hairs, and I don’t think it’ll be long before my tummy is completely covered. I’m getting a few more odd hairs on my chest, and I think the patch in the center of my chest is growing.  Perhaps the hair on my lower back is darker or thicker, as well.  I feel like my hair is changing texture, as well–thickening, darkening; fortunately, it’s still soft so far. The size of my shoulders and arms are still commented on every now and then.  

My sex drive is still high, and my dick has grown a lot as well.  I haven’t been able to use my front-hole for sex, though; it’s been too sensitive.  It’s not too much of a loss, though, since I had only been using it for a few months.

I have a shorter temper than I used to, and also that I am more inclined/able to express that anger than ever before.  Also, I find myself completely unable to cry.  If I’ve cried since beginning injections, I can’t remember it.  Situations and feelings that once would’ve made me cry usually register as irritation or anger.

Within a shot or two of my “one month” update, my moods and energy had leveled considerably and so I’ve kept my dose and schedule at 100mg every 10 days.  A few hours after my shots I do still tend to be very hungry and sleepy.  My mood and energy and appetite are stable, but are a good bit higher than they tended to be pre-testosterone.  Since beginning HRT, I’ve only menstruated once–a few days after my first shot.  I do cramp sometimes, and I’ve had occasional hot flashes, but that’s all I’ve heard from my reproductive system lately.