Monthly Archives: April 2009

I don’t know when I became uncomfortable describing myself as “FTM”. I’m not sure if it’s internalized transphobia, but it might be (although, I have no trouble describing myself as “trans”). It just doesn’t feel like an honest way to describe my experience.

I was a lesbian-identified bisexual, and that feels fine to say. But “female” is something that was put on me, from the beginning. I chose gender words I was comfortable with, of which tomgirl remains my favorite. I think that one of the reasons I’ve lost interest in being a part of most trans panels and the like is that I don’t want to refer to myself as “FTM” or “female-to-male” or any of that other nonsense.